Call to action

I used to fear TEOTWAKI. The acronym stands for a theory already suggested by current events. It goes like this: climate change, dwindling oil and water, and the inevitable implosion of economies based on perpetual growth will lead to the end of the world as we know it.

That belief is a real buzzkill. It extends far beyond creating a “Go Bag” or emergency preparedness plan. Doubt in future prosperity makes you postpone starting a family, makes you do less-fun things because they’re “more green,” makes you wonder what the fucking point is.

After feeling this way for about three years, I hit a wall. I started to feel, and this just happened about six months ago, like I didn’t care anymore. 

Maybe composting will save the world. Or maybe it’s already fucked.

I started to feel like the processs of climate change is already underway. And meanwhile, anticipating its effects are making me miserable. In reality, the process will probably be so slow and gradual, we won’t even notice how an unstable environment is altering our lives. 

And who knows? A virus may take most of us out tomorrow…

…or a scientist may find an economical way to make saltwater potable.

We really never know until it happens.

The difference between a liberal environmentalist and a conservative survivalist today is that the former thinks she can save the world with her vote and her buying power, and the latter thinks she can save herself with a full larder, a gun, and a generator. For too long, I fell between them, feeling my vote was meaningless and my larder empty.

This is the ongoing battle I’ve always felt between pragmatic conservatism (any soap is better than no soap) and the passionate liberal (green soap, or no soap). I believe a healthy democracy actively engages both voices. Because survival, and thriving, and growth, and peace, require each perspective some of the time. 

Yet I listen to both voices with equal skepticism. I do not believe we can halt global warming, I believe it is already underway. And I do not believe there is value in building a bunker on the hill.

I believe in what neither side seems to consider. Not survival, but, What would you do to help?

What could you do now to make you less of a burden, and more of an assset?

Tonight I was making dinner and suddenly noticed all the manufacturing that went into it: the sea salt, the ranch dressing, even the vodka in my cocktail. My life would be so incredibly different if I was living on what I or my immediate neighbors could produce.

Last year I would have found that thought depressing, a reminder of what may come.

Tonight I thought, The past is no more and the future isn’t yet. Right now I can enjoy salt from another end of the earth. 

Isn’t that, I realized, a call to action to enjoy life while you can?

Maybe if we truly valued this life, we would be better motivated to preserve it.

Either way, it is joy, more than fear, composting or generators, that sustains life. Spread it.

Poem of the crossed path 

I pledge allegiance to letting it be.
One family under the sky.
Woman, man, or anywhere along that spread,
walking forward under the dominion
(the command)
of an individual’s arrow pointing,
this way.
The yellow brick road of your soul.

I choose this,
And you do not,
And that is fine.
I pledge allegiance to your journey,
as much as mine,
the social contract,
(or my greatest hope)
:
that this big planet has the space,
the water
and the time
to let you walk your way
and let me walk mine
with a salute in passing
and no need for
gunshots.

AI, Human Creativity in the Shiny Future

It’s human nature to fear technology as a threat to job security. Ironically, this occurs even when the jobs in question, from data entry to mining, are unpleasant or even dangerous. Transitioning from subsistence and rote work can be scary simply because it asks one to become more.

But that’s also why we pursue these technological breakthroughs. For the opportunity to become more.

Technology is the reason we’re not all still tilling fields for feudal lords. It creates time and energy. It allows people to move to the city to play the saxophone in a jazz band, start craft shops on Etsy, and open consultancies performed via Skype from Bali.

The growth of technology has always been a call to action, driving people to find truer, more stimulating ways to engage with the world.

This conversation started with an article about AI and Jobs on CMO.

Embracing AI will not be easy for any of us, but it is the future. And it may make the Industrial Revolution look like a Tupperware party in terms of the impact it has on our social paradigm.

I think we’re poised for the next Renaissance. We already have, generally speaking, the extra time and resources to pursue interests our parents would have dismissed as either fantastic luxuries or laughable hobbies. I’m talking everything from acrobatic yoga to painting, robotics to music videos.

That is just addressing the current adult generation. We will soon add to the mix a young generation coming of age that grew up with touchscreen computers and apps that help them achieve anything from composing music to learning a language from their couch.

As AI takes over processes that can be learned analytically or by sheer data acquisition, we humans will simply have to become more and more creative. Because that’s what we have that computers don’t: the ability to make synaptic connections that cannot be taught or sometimes even explained.

We’ll develop our creativity not just for job security, but to take advantage of technology’s growing capabilities, and for the sheer joy of it.

I see no reason to fear this; I see The Jetsons. Maybe I watch too many cartoons, but why not? Isn’t that shiny, content world a decent jumping-off point? No matter how smart computers become, it will still be up to us how we use them, work with them, develop them.

The more clearly we visualize today, the better prepared we will be to implement tomorrow.

Imagine with me.

Prayer of the Seven Lifetimes


“Figures in the Dark” by Randall Sahmie, at the Museum of Contemporary Native Art.

In another lifetime beyond reckoning, our minds were with the earth. It was not a perfect life, it was not Avatar. We healed with herbs, and honored the rhythms of life and death, youth and age, wisdom and learning. It was a gentler life and one that respected nature.

It was a matriarchal life. Women were not just seen as appealing ovary-holders as they became later. They were healers, they held counsel together, they planned planting and harvest.

It is difficult to understand now the fundamental differences of a culture that did not just work with the seasons, but celebrated them, did not just make decisions collaboratively, but assumed each viewpoint was valid. There is no written history, we have few clues in goddess statuettes. Anthropology of this era in human life has been deeply biased by the white Victorian male assumption that they were savages.

I only know it was a different cultural paradigm, far from savage, because I remember.

Wherever those memories come from, there also springs a narrative of the fall. The fall was a dialogue, probably in many tribes over many years, between men and women, about the question of control. Why not raise livestock so we do not have to go and hunt? Why not say, this land is ours? Why not establish family around motherhood, so you have one man to keep you safe?

Ideas that probably seemed reasonable. In some ways, couples still have these conversations today. Yes, living in the city is fun and artistic, but if we moved to the suburbs, we’d have a garage and Costco.

Over time, the dialogue evolves. We need to protect this land, these sheep. I need to protect you, sometimes in combat. Since I protect this land, these sheep, this woman, I “own” them. Now I need power to protect. The value of my property is determined by the power it gives me, therefore the sheep may in the longterm be more valuable than my wife if she does not give me son-warriors or daughters to barter.

The argument the Victorian male anthropologist makes in favor of the patriarchal paradigm is that it fixes things (with science and law) rather than accepting them. This argument of the superiority of (male) reason over (female) intuition has been won so effectively that girls become women being taught to ignore those “funny feelings,” and boys become men feeling they’re supposed to figuratively fight their way through life.

We are taught to insist, to prove, to conquer.

I am deeply grateful for the wisdom and freedom we have gained thanks to our gods of science and nature-domination. I recognize that instincts can be causeless fear in disguise, that raising livestock is more productive than foraging, that the goddess of the harvest was probably also a goddess of dying by forty.

But I also argue that the patriarchy and the Catholic God live on even in our agnostic culture, in the guise of science and reason. I argue it is man-thinking that must soon make way for all-thinking.

I’m talking about our cultural devotion to reason, analysis, categorizing, quantifying, studying and trying to master.

We must learn a balance between intuitive knowing and analytical knowing, between accepting and fixing, between valuing and possessing.

I visited a historic cathedral today. Usually anything of old Catholicism makes my hackles rise, but today I found myself sitting down with a full heart. I was overcome by this intense but odd sensation of release. I felt, with that unprovable, instinctive knowing, that I had been fighting with God for so long. Long before I incarnated as Palmer, daughter of an atheist. I had fought with His rules, His sin, His shame. I had fought with my urges, my guilt, my frustration.

Why, I asked lifetime after lifetime, must I live like this, do this, be this?

For seven lifetimes I have shaken my fist at God. Now, I have started hearing a much older, furious, deeply loving presence. The Goddess has no power now, but she has a voice that still rises from wet earth. Her wish is as insistent as the curling tendrils of wild vines. She asks, not to revive ancient ritual, but just to remember.

In remembering, I lose my taste for the paradigm we live in now. I lose my taste for battle, for challenge, for protecting and conquering and proving. I lose my taste for the antiseptic limitations of science as doctrine. I am so deeply bored, I shrug at God. And I can only cast a loving smile at the Goddess.

Sitting in the cathedral, with angels flying overhead and a recorded choir drifting from the arches, I realized, We grew up. A child left its mother’s love at home, and went with its father into the world. And like any child, we each eventually realize that her love is not enough, and his rules no longer matter.

A soul becomes mature realizing, I must love myself, and make my own rules.

And discover whatever comes next, on our own.


Saint Kateri Tekakwitha outside the Cathedral Basilica of Saint Francis of Assisi. The first Native American to be sainted.